A Better Path

Have you ever felt left behind?

I sometimes struggle with this feeling, especially these days. It’s as if the world has decided to move on without me, leave me at the bus stop of the universe, take off with me chasing frantically behind until I run out of energy, holding my knees and gasping for air as I watch it leave me in the dust.

Alone.

Maybe that sounds dramatic, but I can’t help but think that I’m not alone in this. I think that many of us feel as though we’ve been abandoned, whether that’s by friends, family, opportunities, or anything else we may have been holding onto. Like walking a path we thought was meant for us, only to be pushed aside and unable to find our way back on.

I don’t know if I’m making any sense, but this was on my heart tonight.

Sometimes, I wonder if we’re pushed off of familiar paths so that we can find our own. After all, familiar doesn’t always mean “good”. At the beginning of 2020, I definitely thought my life in 2021 would look so much different than it does now, as did so many people.

But now that I look back, I can see the cracks in the pavement that I would have otherwise overlooked. Cracks that could have opened up and seriously hurt me. Cracks that could have broken me.

I have no choice but to believe that the path I’m on now — though perhaps more lonely and uncertain than I would have hoped — is the right one for me. I have no choice but to keep walking, even though everything in me wants to look back sometimes.

Just a thought. Until next time,

-D.